Alright, so we have Internet. It’s really awesome and I am really grateful. But Cheryl Cole was wiser than me. In the opening lines of her song ‘Fight for this love‘, she says “too much of anything can make you sick. Even the good can be a curse.” I should have listened. Hell, we all should have listened.
This was 2009 and five years ago, while Cheryl was singing this live on stage somewhere, I was somewhere happily stuck in the nowhere land of the Internet. 19 at the time, curious as a cat, I was thrilled to be online. I tried out every forum, regularly changed my music taste and watched every film noir movie I could get my hands on. Why? Because it was all for free and everything was there, all the freaking time.
Facebook hadn’t really kicked off in Germany back then. We – or better they – were all still stuck with StudiVZ and other platforms. (Germans used ICQ instead of MSN, too.) The internet enthusiast that I was, I was already using what the rest of the world was using.
I got my news from news sites, my music from YouTube or torrents – I was sharing news personally which means that I was forced to really read and digest the news articles I was referring to, so I could actually talk about it if anyone had further questions. (Quality control!) I shared music by burning them on CDs or USB sticks which means I was forced to really filter and select only those which I thought were the best of the best of the best. (Quality control!)
There are so many other things that are now different. But that’s ok. It really is. The thing is, I think my brain might be a little overwhelmed. My life, especially my thought processes were slow, five years ago and I miss being slow. It felt way more efficient than it does right now. Right now feels fast-paced, unorganized and not at all focused.
Okay, yes, you might say that I was also 19, young and likely stupid, but I remember so much more of what I read and listened to from my youth than I remember from two or three years ago.
I am sure I am not the only one. We, Internet fans, absorb so much of this world, you can’t help but feel overwhelmed and in a strange way, powerless.
I want to take control of this happening. Any suggestions?
Comments will save my life.
Featured image shows Walt Disney’s Carousel of Progress. Steeped in both nostalgia and futurism, the attraction’s premise is an exploration of the joys of living through the advent of electricity and other technological advances during the 20th century via a “typical” American family.